Me- Jess, here-
Internal conversations. Step inside and see. When I can’t handle them…
Jess: There is something inside that i dont like. Something I dont agree with. It is the opposite of me. It’s repulsive. How do I face it?
These thoughts, they are not mine.
These feelings, I do not understand.
This is not me.
Shut them up.
Jey: We can’t shut them up. They are a part of you.
Jess: This is ridiculous. How am I supposed to handle this? If it doesn’t stop how do we live? I can’t accept these thoughts and feelings.
Jey: Well, that’s not entirely true. You haven’t tried to understand them yet. With understanding comes acceptance.
June: ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW? She doesn’t give a damn about your hippy philosophy. She wants her quiet little normal life at whatever cost it takes. She will never understand me. I don’t care to try to explain myself either.
Jess: SEE?! SEE?! How can we get ANYWHERE when SHE is like this on top of how HE is?
Jey: (sighing…) It’s going to be a long process….
Bill: It’s all good. I’m for it. Try. TRY to understand me. You may find you like it. Because, lets face it, I AM you, right? haha…Can’t escape that reality, I am a part of you and you gotta deal with it.
Jess: These thoughts. They are just sick. I’m not sick.
Bill: Oh they aren’t sick, they are just my own perversions. Everyone has perversions.
Jess: You are going to embarrass me if you don’t watch yourself.
Bill: Fine. I hear you. It’s just SOOO DAMN HAARRRD.
Jess: I swear to fucking god—
Bill: -HAHA “Fucking God,” that’s exactly who I’m prayin’ to.
Jess:–STOP IT DAMN IT! YOU ARE MAKING ME LOOK CRAZY!
Bill: YOU are making yourself look crazy! (laughter)
June: You both are MAKING ME crazy!
Jey: ……a very looong process…..